Now the first semester is over, finally! School isn't what I thought it would be-well that's because I didnt thinkabout waht it would be,never-the-less, I'm satisfied, or am I? I'm doing well, yes... I've taken drawing and painting, and now I don't know where to go from there. There's hardly any time to do anything, let alone set a few hours aside to paint- but listen to me complain... I'm lucky to be able to at all. I find myself at a crossroads-naturally. i have had giid direction from my professors, but yet again, when on my own, my confidence is weary. Am I any good? What do people think? Should I care if I'm any goo, or what people think? What I need to do is focus on my own personal growth adn development as an artist. (does that sound selfcentered adn pretentious?) I want to be good, to be better. I want to push myself and try new things, to experiment and have fun. I'm inspired by everything around me-but still I get stuck sometimes. Does that ever happen? Get stuck for no apparent reason? Do I just need a confidence booster, or is this a wakeup call? What am I doing? Losing confidence, need to relax and think positive. Wish I had more time to paint....